My 34th birthday

I celebrated my 34th birthday on 23rd April with Ary. He gave me a lovely bouquet of small teddy bears. But the best birthday gift ever was a special birthday card drawn by my 7 yo nephew,Haikal. The sweetest birthday gift ever. I also received gifts from my ex boss, Daphne (thanks DT for the Schaeffer pen) and from my nephew, 13yo Syafiq.

Cherating trip 20 Apr-23 Apr

I've got this holiday voucher from my company and decided to go to Cherating with my best friend, Ana. I drove there and we checked in at Holiday Villa at 2pm. Cherating is nice. You can see from the pictures. Managed to shag a few guys too. :) -> G4 Azwan (20 Apr, 8pm), G4 Amser (21 Apr, 10pm), and Mj Fie (22 Apr, 8pm). I checked out of the hotel on 23 Apr around 10am which happened to fall on my 34th bithday. Happy birthday to me. I really need the break after so much toil with work. It was a good break. I just chilled by the beachside. sunbathing! jogging! Sightseeing at Kemaman! The view was just breathtaking. The food, however, sucks! I went to Teluk Chempedak too. Having my pictures taken by Ana. You should go to the other side of Teluk Chempedak. The bridge leading up to the side is simply awesome. Pretending to be model wannabe. I wish!

April 2008

1 Apr - dated G4 Odary at Pudu Ulu around 11pm. We juz had a drink at a stall nearby his place.
3 Apr - dinner date with G4 Brokenflowe at Pantai Dalam, bukit angkasa area around 11pm. Not my type though coz he sounded cocky!
5 Apr - Shagged Zali twice around 3am.
8 Apr - Shagged 8 V Zain around 7pm.
12 Apr - movie date with G4 Kentonny. Watched 'Definitely Maybe' 2.50pm at Times Square.
13 Apr - Shagged 8 The Am around 2am.
17 Apr - Shagged Mj Ashid 5pm.
24 Apr - Lunch date with Ary.
25 Apr - Shagged Mj Erictan 11.45pm.
26 Apr- Went to Kuala Pilah, Kak Izan's house.
27 Apr- Watched 'Congkak' with Ary at Times Square.
29 Apr - Shagged Mj Shah18 2am.

Dear Diary! March 08 (continued)

Hi All
I'm back after 8 months hiatus. So many things happened to me (good and bad!) throughout th period. Anyway, let's continue what happened from March 20 till March 31.

20 Mar - Celebrated Adam's birthday. He's 1 year old on 6 Mar. So cute. Here he is and his big Mickey Mouse cake.

21 Mar - Shagged 8 The Ambassador 3am.

23 Mar - Shagged 8 Neo 9pm.

24 Mar - Dated G4 Syuk at UM around 10pm. Not working for me! He's just another faker!

26 Mar - Dated G4 Ashriell at Bangi around 11pm. Not my type! Next please!

29 Mar - MJ Shah18 came over and stayed overnight. Shagged him twice; 3am and 4am. He's so cute and young and he's only 18. Yummy!

Birthdays:

1. Adam (6 Mar - 1 yo)

2. Mak Andak (5 Mar)

3. Kak Izan (7 Mar - 46 yo)

4. Ina (31 Mar - 32 yo)

Hari ini dan semalam!

Hari ini setelah satu bulan since my last post, aku ingin titip kembali apa yg berlaku padaku for the past 1 month.
17 Feb'08: Dated G4 Epiphane Fuzz. Went over to his place at Bandar Tasik Selatan around 11pm. We are supposed to go out for a drink and we ended up having tea at his house instead. He just met with an accident and he injured his leg. Poor thing! He was a nice guy. But that was it. That was the first and the last time i met him and contacted him. Sadly, he never contacted me or sms me. I guess it's bad luck again for me. Perhaps it's karma. I am doomed for romance.

20 Feb'08: Dated Mj Irwan around 11pm at Sentul. He wasn't my type though. Looked so much different in real life. Lots of teethy action. But i came clean to him after we had late dinner and told him that he wasn't my type.

22 Feb'08: Shagged G4 5zol around 6ish.

23 Feb'08: The worst day of my life. G4 yoe rejected me. It took him split seconds to reject me and i could tell from the look on his face that he loathed the sight of me. Am i that ugly? I couldn't stand it that i ended up crying myself out in the bathroom, at home. I didn't dare to go out that weekend. I just couldn't face the world. Facing another rejection.

24 Feb'08: Dated fC jeff at 1am. He was ok and all but he talked about himself a lot i.e. the fact that he is a model, a stage actor, and has a lots of fans. So, i didn't the date that much.

3 Mar'08: One of my grandfathers died. He didn't sick at all. He had problems breathing after choking on papaya that he ate during dinner. It was so sad though but he looked calm. I'm gonna miss you Tok Busu.

4 Mar'08: Funeral of my grandfather before Zohor prayer. Dated g4 fifth 6pm at Shah Alam.

5 Mar'08: Shagged mj prep around 6pm. He's short, and cute but was pretty demanding in bed something like 'fuck me hard. Harder!'. Such a dominatrix for a short guy. Dinner with g4 fifth.

8 Mar'08: Watched The spiderwick chronicle at T2 at 11.15am alone.

9 Mar'08: Went to Mamad Fever's home at Kg Baru around 1am.

11 Mar'08: First time i had a quickie in my car. FC jomkekawan sucked my dick and jerked me off. Did it at parking lot of Marriot Putrajaya around 12midnight.

13 Mar'08: Being rejected by an 8tv chatter. Again! Aku dah lali kena reject. Rejection is me.

14 Mar'08: Shagged g4 cairel twice; 3am and 5am. It was a good and tender moments with him. We talked. We cuddled. I hugged him while he was sleeping. Tucked him close to my body. Rubbing his hair gently while he was sleeping. I ended up going late to the office. Reached office around 10am.

Kenapa bukan aku?

Aku masih tertanya2 kenapa hidup aku tidak seindah atau semudah plu yang lain? Kisah cinta aku tiada yg indahnya. Aku masih tidak mahu menerima hakikat yang teman2 plu aku yang lain punya boyfriend yg muda dan cute. Teman2 plu aku tidaklah sehandsome mana. Salah seorang daripada mereka adalah bergigi 'mancung' a.k.a. jongang. Malah, aku yakin aku lagi menarik daripada mereka.

Yang menghairankan aku, the cute boyfriends are the ones suka pada teman2 aku and not the other way around. Pelik ya. Taste manusia sekarang amat berbeza. Yang cute suka pada yang jelek. Aku pun kurang pasti apa yang mereka mahukan. Wang? aku mau aje laungkan kepada dunia yang aku butuhkan boyfriend yg cute. kadang2 lewat malam, aku pasti menangis sendirian di kamar. aku feel so much like a loser.

Mungkin ada benarnya kata2 teman plu aku yang aku ini 'vicious', 'cold hearted' dan karena itu, ramai yang takut kepada aku dan karena itu jugalah tiada orang yang suka sama aku. Tapi, aku juga manusia. punya hati. punya perasaan. punya keinginan. punya impian. punya hasrat. punya mimpi. punya harapan. punya cita2. punya matlamat. punya hak. hak untuk bercinta. hak untuk dicintai. Kenapa mereka? kenapa bukan aku?

REJECTION KILLS!

I was rejected last night. I'm so sad right now. He told me i wasn't his type. But, the truth is, why he even bother to come down to KL to meet me if i'm not his type in the first place. Pelik Bin Ajaib. Very weird. So insanely absurd that some people would do such thing. He doesn't even have the "balls" to say to me upfront. But, instead, he send me an SMS "rejecting" me.

Some people are just unbelievable. That saying or statement "I don't go for looks. It's what inside that counts. Your heart matters. Saya tak melihat pada paras rupa. Yang penting hati yang ikhlas dan jujur. " What a croak of shits! Bullshit! That's how I summarize these types of people. Manusia ini ternyata bodoh. Manusia ini bodoh. Tapi yang membezakan kebodohan itu ialah rasional dan logika. I am myself a human, a manusia but yang membezakan aku dengan manusia lain ialah logik. Kalau niat atau nawaitu ikhlas, berlaku jujur is the best. Honesty is always the best policy.

The hardest part of putting myself out there looking for love, dating is - rejection. It just feels awful. But, people still are superficial. They base on your looks before factoring little details about you. and most of the time, they are rejecting you before you reject them. They take people at face value. If they are looking for Brad Pitt, they might as well "take a hike".

All I can say is that this is not my first rejection. This is my first for 2008. I should open my own "Reject Shop" with every corner of my shops describing how i was being rejected. It is become so popular that people will come to my shop which is essentially a cafe and not a shop that the cafe would be a hotspot for people who have been rejected to dine and share something in common. I should do that. Always remember, "people never reject the real you". It's their loss actually. They reject what they imagine you to be before they ever really have the chance to know the real you.